I don't know why I'm doing this right now. I'm in journalism. But I just feel the need to vent. I don't even know what about. But I do. I wish I could have what I want. But then I wouldn't learn patience, would I? No...and I need to learn some. Wow, church was amazing last night. The missionary from Haiti really inspired me. To go. And tell. I want to leave for Guatemala today, and Haiti as soon as I get back. *sigh* I can't wait to leave! But I know God has more to teach me or else I would be leaving now. What would He have me learn? I need to find this out. Life is hard..and that sounds so cleshe, or however in the world you spell that, but it's so true. Oh I want to move away from High School and be in the "real world". Why do people call it that? Does that meant that my life now isn't "real" to adults standards? Seriously, that's not the case. I have real struggles and real pain just like any adult. I just can't do what I want when I want it, since I still live in my parents' house. But in my opinion my life is no less "real" than any adult I know. Why do people say things when they have no idea what they're talking about? These are the things that frustrate me.
Funny how if you had asked me what I was thinking about, I wouldn't have said any of this. But when I just sit down and let my thoughts come out, instead of ignoring them and keeping them within the confinement of my head, I even surprise myself. Yeah. That's me. Who can explain me to me? I most definately can't.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
So I'm sittin in Mrs. Sunday's room, I'm on her computer...shhh. Anyway, I'm not doing anything, so I just decided to spill all my thoughts onto the screen...yeah. Alright then. Class officer elections are this week, and I'm running for president (yay!!!) well John is running too, and I don't care really, it'll be fun to have competition, and if I don't win, and he does, who cares? Not me. But apparently, there are some people, or a person, that does (do?) and everytime I mention it, they make this huge deal saying that I'm taking this soo seriously, and making a huge deal out of it. Not really. They, in acutality, are the ones who are making a big deal out of nothing, and it just leaves me really frustrated, especially since I just did this to have fun, and not for any other reason. Ugh....it's so annoying!! So...I don't know what to say now, except Good Luck John! I think that you'll make a great president given the opportunity!