Thanksgiving Break! I miss my family! I'm ready to see them, and eat awesome food...not to mention that the break from school is going to be amazing!!!!
The Apologies Series: Jason's got a set of messages set up for us to deliver to the community. Apologizing for the hypocricy of our church, telling them about our desire to change, and be worthy of the cause God has given us. I can't wait to see God move through this!
Christmas!!! I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!! It is the BEST time ever, and I just can't wait!
And the BIGGEST!!!!!
GUATEMALA!!!!!!!!!!!! My mom's sending in my papers today! That means its all for real! I really truly am going to another country to be the hands and feet of my Savior! I get to meet Petronila Jeaneth Rodriguez Cruz, the cutest, sweetest Guatemalan girl who is my Compassion child! She's nine and her favorite color is blue, and she likes to play tea party <3!!! This really marks the beginning for me, because this is what God wants me to do for LIFE! I feel like I'm really beginning to make a difference and lead the nations to Christ!
not near as huge....
MARCHING SEASON IS OVER!!!!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE concert season in band! The songs we get to play, the level of music, and the range of emotion that comes with this time is just...the best! Sometimes I feel like first period's not a class, but a type of therapy where I can just let go and pour everything into the storyline of the music. ahhhhh!!!
Yes, there is tons to look foward to for me! Life is great, and it's all because I'm trusting everything in my Savior. He is the source of life, and love, and purpose for me and....I can't even describe! The things He's teaching me, wow!
I'm so ready! For what?
Don't get me wrong, life in Beccaland is not perfect right now, actually it's very tough. I'm extremely burdened about some things, and some people, but the fact that God is in control relieves all worry I could possibly have :)
School is tough, I made a B in Physics. I beat myself up about it pretty bad, since I really care about rank, and where I graduate. But as I was praying about it, God really just comforted me with the fact that I really did do my best. And He's proud of that. AND I'm not even going to use sciences in my career, so I shouldn't expect perfect grades. All Ican do is my best. Be happy. Chill out. Live life. Honor God.\
I don't know why I'm doing this right now. I'm in journalism. But I just feel the need to vent. I don't even know what about. But I do. I wish I could have what I want. But then I wouldn't learn patience, would I? No...and I need to learn some. Wow, church was amazing last night. The missionary from Haiti really inspired me. To go. And tell. I want to leave for Guatemala today, and Haiti as soon as I get back. *sigh* I can't wait to leave! But I know God has more to teach me or else I would be leaving now. What would He have me learn? I need to find this out. Life is hard..and that sounds so cleshe, or however in the world you spell that, but it's so true. Oh I want to move away from High School and be in the "real world". Why do people call it that? Does that meant that my life now isn't "real" to adults standards? Seriously, that's not the case. I have real struggles and real pain just like any adult. I just can't do what I want when I want it, since I still live in my parents' house. But in my opinion my life is no less "real" than any adult I know. Why do people say things when they have no idea what they're talking about? These are the things that frustrate me.
Funny how if you had asked me what I was thinking about, I wouldn't have said any of this. But when I just sit down and let my thoughts come out, instead of ignoring them and keeping them within the confinement of my head, I even surprise myself. Yeah. That's me. Who can explain me to me? I most definately can't.
So I'm sittin in Mrs. Sunday's room, I'm on her computer...shhh. Anyway, I'm not doing anything, so I just decided to spill all my thoughts onto the screen...yeah. Alright then. Class officer elections are this week, and I'm running for president (yay!!!) well John is running too, and I don't care really, it'll be fun to have competition, and if I don't win, and he does, who cares? Not me. But apparently, there are some people, or a person, that does (do?) and everytime I mention it, they make this huge deal saying that I'm taking this soo seriously, and making a huge deal out of it. Not really. They, in acutality, are the ones who are making a big deal out of nothing, and it just leaves me really frustrated, especially since I just did this to have fun, and not for any other reason. Ugh....it's so annoying!! So...I don't know what to say now, except Good Luck John! I think that you'll make a great president given the opportunity!
So I don't even know if anyone will ever read this, but I figure I have a blog now, I might as well use it. Right now, though, I have nothing to say. Shocker, I know. But have no fear, I will come up with something later :)
Hmmm...what can I say about me? I'm really random, and pretty quirky. I have a passion for the things of God, and being about His work. I want to be a missionary, and I'm learning Spanish. I'm going to Guatemala this summer, so that's gonna be pretty awesome